Happy 1 week Twinados

It's hard to believe but, my babies are 1 week old (or they were yesterday). It has been the the most intense, difficult, happy, nerve wrecking week of my life. I will blog about they day they decided to arrive a different time. I just had a few minutes of blissful nap time and decided to share a picture.

They are so beautiful. I'm sure every mother says this but, I can't stop looking at them and I'm so lucky that I'm their mommy. They are completely different in every way. They don't look alike or act anything alike. Kinlee has become the most patient baby I have ever known. She started out bossy and demanding and has settled in and become sweet and tolerant and patient. I love her little face and her sweet, sweet eyes. Jett is my grouchy old man. He only weighs 4.11 and is officially above his birth weight. He has a thin face that is wrinkly and soft. He makes so many faces and is so full of expression. I see him to be my funny kid that will probably keep me on my toes.

I am sleep deprived, food deprived and the happiest that I have been in my entire life. I get so much joy from them. I feel overwhelmed outnumbered by the two babies but I'm so happy they came together and we all get to experience this together. I love my new, crazy life and I love being a mommy. So, Happy 1 Week Kinlee and Jett!

Ultrasound Update

So, today I took the twinados for their 36 wk growth ultrasound. And grow they did. She is weighing in at a whopping 5.6 lbs and he is 5.5 lbs. That's about 11 lbs of babies, people! And we still have 2 weeks to go. I just hope that I don't end up like this Mom.

The babies look great and are measuring fine, except their heads. The tech that was scanning them said that they both have small heads, in the tenth percentile. I think she could tell this was freaking me out a little which prompted her to say "It's probably fine, you have a small head too." What the heck does that mean? I didn't know whether or not to be insulted or relieved.

I came home and told my husband the news of the day and I could see the fear in his eyes. His response? "So, what does that mean? Our kids look like Beetlejuice?" Wow babe, thanks for the sensitivity.

I have spent the majority of the evening doing internet research on tiny baby heads and what that could possibly mean. Apparently it's fine and tiny heads do not equal tiny brains. So, now it's just back to the waiting game. I'll keep you posted.

Tricky babies

I just knew I was having babies today. I really did. I went as far as telling my mom and sister to go ahead and come this way because I was having 8-9-10 babies. As with most everything else in this pregnancy, I was wrong.

Most twins come between 34-36 weeks. Today is 35.4 weeks and it would have be a great day to have a couple kids. I was fully prepared to waddle into my OB's office for her to announce that this was the day and lets do this. I mean, just three weeks ago I was in the hospital for preeclampsia and they were planning on taking them that night. I guess I'm too successful with the house arrest. My blood pressure was better than it has been the entire pregnancy and there is no medical reason to take them.

I was just being selfish. 35.4 is too early. 36-37 is way better but 38 weeks freaks me out! These two probably weigh close to 6lbs each now. That is a lot of baby. I have actually lost weight because lil man is so high up in my abdomen that there is no room in my stomach and I can't eat too much!

I am planning (here I go again with my brilliant plans) to have my big kidney surgery just a few weeks after I have my babies. That's why I need them out! My FMLA is for 12 weeks and that's how I have my insurance (which is at 100%) so I am getting kinda panicky as I chill here at home waiting for these two to make their grand entrance.

My major life lesson throughout this pregnancy is "it's not about me" and being the stubborn girl that I am, this has been a difficult pill to swallow. So, I am going to sit back and be thankful for a little bit more time to prepare for them. I'm sure I will be missing this relaxing time in a few short weeks.

It's almost time!?!

It is Saturday, August 7th and I am 35 weeks and 2 days pregnant. I am currently on "bedrest" which I have redefined as house arrest to accommodate my desire to "nest". I was admitted to the hospital a couple weeks ago for preeclampsia and that's why I have been ordered to take it easy.

So, I have been off work and here at the house organizing, cleaning, and starting to really freak out. My blood pressure has dropped a ton since I quit working but, I miss seeing everyone at my office. I miss solving problems, working with patients, and getting out of the house. It's hard to be a stay at home mom when your kids aren't here yet.

I also have a huge fear that my life is about to change and that I may not be ready for it. I have wanted to be a mom more than anything else for as long as I can remember but, now I'm nervous. I'm scared because I know that my life will never be the same and I hope I can adjust accordingly.

L and I have had a pretty great life so far. We have Jace twice a week and every other weekend so, we have had the joy of parenting but also got to enjoy newlywed life. Now, there will always be kids here. Will this change our relationship? Can we still make time for each other with newborn twins and a crazy 3.5 yr old?

I guess as with everything else, I will adjust and it will work out. I think (hope) these fears are normal and that they will pass once I see what I'm up against. It's the fear of the unknown.