I have seen the light!

When you have a newborn baby or two, people always talk about the 3 month time or "the light at the end of the tunnel." When everything is supposed to get easier and your life will begin to feel normal again. Let me tell you, I have seen the light!

The twinados are 3 months old now. 3 months 4 days to be exact. We are getting longer stretches of sleep and starting to feel like we can survive this multiples business. The babies are rewarding us for our lack of sleep and crazy lives with smiles and occasional baby laughs. Life is good.

A lot has changed since I promised to starting blogging again over a month ago. Our once tiny, slightly under cooked preemies are now huge babies. Kinlee is over 12 lbs now and our Jett is over 11. Jett talks more than Oprah and our Miss K is more dramatic than anyone in Hollywood. She is bananas. I videoed her crying the other day (because that's what good moms do) and let her watch it. She seriously made her self cry watching her self cry. Wrap your head around that. My mom want a video of K watching herself on video. I'll get right on that. Eventually.

We have kinda figured out how to take these babies in public. For the longest time we would leave the house one at a time because braving the great outdoors can be overwhelming and exhausting. Just loading the car can be work. Now we just each strap on a baby and go. The babies love being in the Bjorn. They can look around and we can get some shopping done.

The biggest change is that I am back at work. I feel like I should be working here at home helping grow the minds of a future doctor and a future technology genius but, for our family a stay at home dad works best for now. Luckily, I picked a great dad for my kids and they are very happy with our decision.

That's all the time I have for now. Miss Kinlee is fighting sleep and I need to get things ready for tomorrow. Here's recent pictures of our twinados. Enjoy.

Time Flies When You're Sleep Deprived

I look at my last post and it was when I had week old twinados. 5 weeks ago. It feels just like yesterday though. I have 6 week old babies now and they are getting so big. So much has changed since my last post.

At the time of my last post, I was only 1 week into motherhood and had a lot of help and was just getting to know my babies. I was blissfully unaware of what was to come. I was certain at that point that I would win awards for Mother of the Year and that I should start writing my parenting book on the Joys of Multiples. Umm...lets just say that soon after that post I got my reality check.

Nothing can prepare you for motherhood and then multiply that by two. I had no idea how tired I would be. How emotional I would be. And how frustrated at myself I would be. They don't tell you that info in all the books that I downloaded into the Kindle I purchased before the babies arrived because I was sure I would have so much time to read. Or maybe I just skipped those chapters because I was sure they didn't apply to me.

This Mommy business is the hardest job I've ever done. It's the most important thing I have ever taken on so that's why it's so hard. I worked so hard at the perfect schedule, being prepared with bottles, packing the perfect diaper bag. Let's just say I've relaxed a little. I actually took both babies to the pediatrician today and forgot wipes. I prayed the entire time for no dirty diapers.

Now at 6 weeks I am starting to feel normal again. You get used not sleeping. You get used to the crying and start to figure out which ones are the real deal and which ones are from our future Oscar winning drama queen. You get used to taking life 3 hrs at a time between feedings. And it's all worth it.

I love my new job. Nothing feels better than having a newborn on your shoulder. It amazes me how they can go from crying like crazy and I can put them close to me and it calms them, because I'm their Mommy. She makes me laugh all day because she is so dramatic. He makes me smile because his smile is so big it moves his ears.

So, now that I am kinda getting more used to my new role I will try to post more. I need to because one day I wont have newborn babies. They grow so fast and I want to have some thing to look back on and remember this time. But for now, I'm going to try to catch a couple hours sleep while I can.

Happy 1 week Twinados

It's hard to believe but, my babies are 1 week old (or they were yesterday). It has been the the most intense, difficult, happy, nerve wrecking week of my life. I will blog about they day they decided to arrive a different time. I just had a few minutes of blissful nap time and decided to share a picture.

They are so beautiful. I'm sure every mother says this but, I can't stop looking at them and I'm so lucky that I'm their mommy. They are completely different in every way. They don't look alike or act anything alike. Kinlee has become the most patient baby I have ever known. She started out bossy and demanding and has settled in and become sweet and tolerant and patient. I love her little face and her sweet, sweet eyes. Jett is my grouchy old man. He only weighs 4.11 and is officially above his birth weight. He has a thin face that is wrinkly and soft. He makes so many faces and is so full of expression. I see him to be my funny kid that will probably keep me on my toes.

I am sleep deprived, food deprived and the happiest that I have been in my entire life. I get so much joy from them. I feel overwhelmed outnumbered by the two babies but I'm so happy they came together and we all get to experience this together. I love my new, crazy life and I love being a mommy. So, Happy 1 Week Kinlee and Jett!

Ultrasound Update

So, today I took the twinados for their 36 wk growth ultrasound. And grow they did. She is weighing in at a whopping 5.6 lbs and he is 5.5 lbs. That's about 11 lbs of babies, people! And we still have 2 weeks to go. I just hope that I don't end up like this Mom.

The babies look great and are measuring fine, except their heads. The tech that was scanning them said that they both have small heads, in the tenth percentile. I think she could tell this was freaking me out a little which prompted her to say "It's probably fine, you have a small head too." What the heck does that mean? I didn't know whether or not to be insulted or relieved.

I came home and told my husband the news of the day and I could see the fear in his eyes. His response? "So, what does that mean? Our kids look like Beetlejuice?" Wow babe, thanks for the sensitivity.

I have spent the majority of the evening doing internet research on tiny baby heads and what that could possibly mean. Apparently it's fine and tiny heads do not equal tiny brains. So, now it's just back to the waiting game. I'll keep you posted.

Tricky babies

I just knew I was having babies today. I really did. I went as far as telling my mom and sister to go ahead and come this way because I was having 8-9-10 babies. As with most everything else in this pregnancy, I was wrong.

Most twins come between 34-36 weeks. Today is 35.4 weeks and it would have be a great day to have a couple kids. I was fully prepared to waddle into my OB's office for her to announce that this was the day and lets do this. I mean, just three weeks ago I was in the hospital for preeclampsia and they were planning on taking them that night. I guess I'm too successful with the house arrest. My blood pressure was better than it has been the entire pregnancy and there is no medical reason to take them.

I was just being selfish. 35.4 is too early. 36-37 is way better but 38 weeks freaks me out! These two probably weigh close to 6lbs each now. That is a lot of baby. I have actually lost weight because lil man is so high up in my abdomen that there is no room in my stomach and I can't eat too much!

I am planning (here I go again with my brilliant plans) to have my big kidney surgery just a few weeks after I have my babies. That's why I need them out! My FMLA is for 12 weeks and that's how I have my insurance (which is at 100%) so I am getting kinda panicky as I chill here at home waiting for these two to make their grand entrance.

My major life lesson throughout this pregnancy is "it's not about me" and being the stubborn girl that I am, this has been a difficult pill to swallow. So, I am going to sit back and be thankful for a little bit more time to prepare for them. I'm sure I will be missing this relaxing time in a few short weeks.

It's almost time!?!

It is Saturday, August 7th and I am 35 weeks and 2 days pregnant. I am currently on "bedrest" which I have redefined as house arrest to accommodate my desire to "nest". I was admitted to the hospital a couple weeks ago for preeclampsia and that's why I have been ordered to take it easy.

So, I have been off work and here at the house organizing, cleaning, and starting to really freak out. My blood pressure has dropped a ton since I quit working but, I miss seeing everyone at my office. I miss solving problems, working with patients, and getting out of the house. It's hard to be a stay at home mom when your kids aren't here yet.

I also have a huge fear that my life is about to change and that I may not be ready for it. I have wanted to be a mom more than anything else for as long as I can remember but, now I'm nervous. I'm scared because I know that my life will never be the same and I hope I can adjust accordingly.

L and I have had a pretty great life so far. We have Jace twice a week and every other weekend so, we have had the joy of parenting but also got to enjoy newlywed life. Now, there will always be kids here. Will this change our relationship? Can we still make time for each other with newborn twins and a crazy 3.5 yr old?

I guess as with everything else, I will adjust and it will work out. I think (hope) these fears are normal and that they will pass once I see what I'm up against. It's the fear of the unknown.

Will I ever sleep again?

I'm officially terrified. These babies are going to be here really soon and I don't know if I'm ready. I'm almost finished with all the to do's to welcome them here (finishing their room, washing their clothes, accepting amazing gifts from family and friends) but, the mom stuff I'm worried about.

I just finished reading a blog of a friend of a friend. She is two weeks out with her darling little girl and she was writing about feeding and lack of sleep. I have been trying to research sleep schedules with twins but, I don't really think I know what I'm in for.

These two are supposed to eat every 2-3 hrs and it takes about an hr at a time!?! HOLY HECK! That's a lot of feeding and a little sleeping. I have a plan to feed and sleep them at the same time to get them on the same schedule but, that sounds terrifying.

L's mom will be helping me at first but, I need to figure this out on my own. I realize that I'm not the first mother to have twins and won't be the last so it can be done. I'm a notorious multi-tasker so I can do this. Just don't expect to see much of me during the first few months.